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Born from the undesirable excess of a long-endured abusive relationship.

It is quite disturbing

when the spirit within me

reveals to me

the spirit within you

As a demon

Yes, you, a demon

appeared to me

in a nightmare

Where you were

completely controlled

Isn’t that ironic?

with constant nervous

movements

and unseen before

contortions

of every one

of your limbs.

You were fully clothed

unlike the man Jesus healed.

You know, where the

Legion of demons

entered the pigs? Mark 5

You had three dumb powerhouses

To aid you in your plans.

whatever those plans may have been

Although,

you never

accomplished anything

other than your

strange gestures and

psychotic writhing.

I found it all quite sickening

You never moved

from your chair

along the wall.

You were waiting for court to proceed

waiting for the judge to proclaim to you

‘Hear Ye! Hear Ye!

The activities your children

participate in

are invalid!’

Really?

I should send your argument to SNL.

‘Yes. Music lessons are valid,

but the instrument is not.’

Really?

It was frightful to see you

Possessed

Oppressed

Tormented

It was emotionally draining to have to

deal with you in this manner.

But you were never able to touch me

or any of my loved ones.

You were thoroughly consumed

in nonsensical demonic activity.

No, I did not wipe the drool off of your face.

It just puddled to the floor.

I had this nightmare.

I remain on my knees

in love with

my Father God.

Maon…           my Dwelling Place

Machseh…     my Refuge

Magen…         my Shield

Metsuda…     my Fortress

Migdal-Oz…  my Strong Tower

Now I have penned this

dreadful bout of anguish

while continuing to deal

with the years of fear

You heaved upon me.

I am not perfect but

I am beautiful and

I am free.

I no longer live your nightmare.

You are not perfect

You are ugly

You are living this nightmare.

Somehow,

I still pray for you.

But honestly,

I don’t think it is me.

It must be someone

much more nobler than I,

one whom resides within.

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

Surely he will save you from the fowlers snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you make the Most High your dwelling—even the Lord, who is my refuge—then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.” Psalm 91:1-16 TCR NIV Bible

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Kimberley Formosa © 2010

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Dedicated to the victims and survivors of physical, mental, and emotional abuse.

the spirit

being embraced

within this human being

the soul

being housed

within this heart and mind

cannot be imprisoned

by your immoral actions

your disrespectful

condescending words

you have

bruised my flesh

choked me

with your insolence

forced me to swallow

your vile poisons

fear

strength

Sorrowfully

harm was imposed upon

all of the inhabitants

of our home

young as they were

some are still

prying the fingers of

fear and disrespect

which had grasped such a hold

upon their tender hearts

you, thus far,

have lived a life

protected by impunity

Justice has now claimed her due.

I am who I am.

Never will there ever be a moment

in my life that you can lay claim to.

With grace

mercy

hope and love

I have unloaded the burdens

you would have me carry.

I have broken the chains of fear.

I am, once again, beautiful me.

My prayers lie in the hope

that my heart

my words

my actions,

would never turn to such

wretchedness

as I have experienced.

I pray that my

Most Holy Reverend Father God

would never find me

guilty of contempt.

Kimberley Formosa © 2010

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